Friday, 27 April 2018

057: How about, recently?

I got this for myself as a birthday present on early March, but I sadly left it at home?


I am probably in the busiest quarter I would get before hitting the final in another three weeks. Time flies, per usual. I cannot recall how many times I really wished weekends to arrive faster… when it just Monday? Lol. Bukan semua orang macam ni ke?
Ok…maybe only me.

Prereg Subject

I think – pre-registration week would be the most cursed week among IIUM students, no joke. Some even cried, and per usual there would be a lot lot LOT of ranting go over the social media. This semester was a bit devastating for me as I had to go manual for few subjects yet only able to reach the minimum credit hours. I reserved any complaints because apparently, I have got more time to spare for ‘entertainments’.

For next semester (Second Year, Second Semester wuhuuu!) I have to get my arms ready. 21 credit hours, I am gonna go through you, bruv.

Me and questions.

I love asking questions… in my head. I do not know if others do have problem like me, but I found it difficult to blurt out questions whenever I am in class. Especially, if I find myself uneasy within that bound.

It’s happened you know. The idea of not being able to feed your curiosity is just… overwhelming. Hence, the reason why I turned green eyes whenever I met people who could bravely, courageously speak up – no matter how ridiculous their opinion and question is.

Recently, I found something interesting. Some people just have a really mind-blowing curiosity which is suppressed underneath their inability to properly address their thoughts or questions. It is bad because people would address your flaws rather than your point, in most cases. However, it is not that bad too because a certain portion of people might notice your ‘uniqueness’ in thought. It just crazy you know.

Therefore, to counter my fear – I decided to put a small tiny little goal. I promised myself that I would speak at least once in one of my Shakespeare classes, a class that I am afraid the most because of the audacity for me to blurt out a point in that class is just terrifyingly scary. Even though I do enjoy the discussion most of the times.

What happened when I did not read?

I could list a bunch if I do really think about the consequences of not entertaining my usual habits. I love reading but lately:

Sleep > Read

I just have that constant need of 5 minutes naps which you know how it actually ends too. Hours, sometimes. I can even sleep while sitting for lectures (juniors, don’t follow me because it’s rude) – to add more, even as I sat on the front row lol. You just have no idea how guilty I am after that but again, it is not something that I can control at that time.

I am just too tired of being tired?

Farewell, Jemari Seni.

If you were an avid fan of any novel under Jemari Seni – this news probably had reached you guys. Of course, I was saddened by this news that happened to arrive when there is only a few days more for Kuala Lumpur International Book Fair 2018. You see, ‘Rooftop Rant’ and ‘Lazuardi’ bring me to them. I even have this dream of wanting to work with them once I finished my degree.

You guys did great, and I sincerely thank Jemari Seni for bringing me authors which I come to find similarities such as HLOVATE and Syud. Not to mention how they did actually get me through all those hard times I have. Taktahulah berapa kali dah aku flip Rooftop Rant setiap kali aku rasa belajar ni susah sobs.

Thank you and may Allah ease everything!

(p/s: I would try to update more?)

Saturday, 10 March 2018

056: of questions


The other day, I was doing my revision at the hallway in my department - my favorite spot at the moment besides library - as a friend of mine approached me. I was reading one of the materials in my Shakespeare's class and she came asking,

"Do you think Shakespeare is still relevant to today's world? I mean, its been ages kot and I cannot brain why do we have to learn about that?"

I was flustered, no joke, but to tell you the truth - I kinda expecting that kind of question. It is actually something that has been around for quite sometimes among my colleague - the 'Why's. Why do we have to study Shakespeare? Why do we have to study Beowulf? Why do we have to study Renaissance, Age of Reason, The European Enlightenment? Why do we have to study about Fiqh and Law and basically everything when we actually doing English? 

We just seem to cannot let go the 'Why' questions. It's like we need the answer in order to rationalize the things that on our plate presently. We are probably at the age that we even question our own existence in this world because sometimes I do. But we know the answer right? Heh. We are vicegerent, the Khalifah of this world, sent down in order to live a life worshiping Allah by doing Ibadah (which does not only restricted to the five principles of Islam). 

Back to my friend. I told her the relationship between literature during that time does not only restrained to be a part of entertainment (with moral values sometimes) as it does nowadays. Literature has always been a powerful tool for the writers to criticise the society. Hence the reason why do we need to understand the context/social environment in that time to understand the stories written by them. 

This is not Qur'an by the way, it is a historical text of Malaya - I forgot which Hikayat this is sobs
Well, my friend seems to accept my general answer (because I do not specifically emphasize about Shakespeare). Usually, she would argue but heh she probably rushing to class lol.

You see, there is always a thing about asking questions. Sometimes, it makes you scared but you really want to seek other opinion. Most probably because when we make our own opinions it would usually being biased-ly (or sometimes clouded with) with our very own emotions. For example, if I hate Literature, maybe I would say that learning about all these literary figures who are already dead hundred years ago is useless.

Not to say that I like Literature but uhm you do the math. Lol.

There's nothing wrong with voicing your opinion. There's nothing wrong with asking for help. 
There is nothing wrong with being wrong either.

It's really been awhile since I last updated and visited all my blogger friends. Somehow, I feel sorry about that. I promised I would try to update on the regular basis because blogging is a part of my life too. 

What is your opinion about how novels/films/plays or even songs being presented nowadays? 

Until the next time, adios!

Saturday, 10 February 2018

055: skin deep worries

Drowned Thoughts by Kelogs

I think a lot. Unnecessary, necessary. But, I rarely share my thought to people. Sometimes, I do. But another time, my judgement just scream no, no, no and NO big time. Put up a wall, a tall one and just shove everything in the closet.

I guess, one of the best things I could do to not over think about something is to just stop thinking about that in particular and just move on. For example, my first week in the third semester of undergraduate study is a mess because I only occupy the minimum credit hours. I want to add another subject which is Phonetics and Phonology, but I was denied sobs.

Frustrated, I cried.

Hahahahaha, hell no. I just went to Sociology Department and submit a new application to add Introduction to Sociology and Anthropology instead. It was an impulse decision because it was the closest department to DELL. I think, I was rejected but nah sokay. I can handle second time disappointment. And that will leave me with 5 subjects (which I supposedly ace it):

1. English Literature: Beowulf To Johnson
2. Shakespeare In His Age And In Modern Context
3. Semantics
4. Introduction To Political Science
5. Sciences Of Hadith

2018 – My sole goal, the core of everything on the list is just to do things that makes me happy. If it doesn’t then just say NO (and freaking please stop thinking about it). When it’s done, then it is done – isn’t?

I no longer want to spend my time on things that would upset me at the end of the day.

Would you?

Heh, I will see you later!

Thursday, 11 January 2018

[review] Mirror in the Sky by Aditi Khorana

For Tara Krishnan, navigating Brierly, the academically rigorous prep school she attends on scholarship, feels overwhelming and impossible. Her junior year begins in the wake of a startling discovery: A message from an alternate Earth, light years away, is intercepted by NASA. This means that on another planet, there is another version of Tara, a Tara who could be living better, burning brighter, because of tiny differences in her choices.

The world lights up with the knowledge of Terra Nova, the mirror planet, and Tara’s life on Earth begins to change. At first, small shifts happen, like attention from Nick Osterman, the most popular guy at Brierly, and her mother playing hooky from work to watch the news all day. But eventually those small shifts swell, the discovery of Terra Nova like a black hole, bending all the light around it.
As a new era of scientific history dawns and Tara's life at Brierly continues its orbit, only one thing is clear: Nothing on Earth--or for Tara--will ever be the same again.


In my previous post, I did mentioned that I picked this book because I was deemed to do a novel analysis for one of my assessments. I finished this one within two days - forcefully, because I no longer have time to write the paper. Surprisingly, I kinda like this novel a lot than I expected to be. One of the reasons is that I do not normally read sci-fi genre because it just hard to digest. Mind me, but I really love something adventurous with a hint of Greek mythology such as Percy Jackson. 

Reading 'Mirror in The Sky' is a new experience for me. Aside from the fact that this is the first time I was challenged to do an analysis - the genre and issues itself come out stronger than I used to familiarize myself with. In a good sense, I think feminist would really love this novel. Why? Because the whole plot literally emphasize about women empowerment. The characters, the stories. You would not find the girls fighting for something stupid, at least I do feel that way.

The fact that this book actually belong to the Young Adult, considering the main character, Tara Krishnan and people surrounding her as well as the setting, the main theme is quite heavy. Khorana tries to emphasize the idea of racism (because the main character is Indian-American living in Greenwich I think, I'm sorry I can't recalled), women empowerment (the girls basically a goal for any women - an intellectual lol) as well as the idea of believing and how would it impact your life  

The idea about the mirror planet is quite mind-blowing to be honest. Uh, by the way if you read this novel expecting it to be filled with a lot of scientific terms and space - you probably be so crossed about that because it did not. Lol. The mirror planet is always there to tie all the plot. The fascinating part about the plot is that people keep using the existence of the mirror planet to justify their action. In other word, just imagined about all the choices, options and chances you had to forget just because of restricted circumstances you faced are the ones that being taken by the other you in that mirror planet.

Think about the possibilities.
Think about the outcomes.
Isn't it mind blowing and just weirdly makes you deliberate a lot?

One of the examples (and yes my favorite scene) is shown through Virginia Woolf 'cameo' in this book. First of all, you need to know that Virginia Woolf is a great writer during Victorian era and she committed suicide by drowning herself in a river closed to her house. In this novel, Khorana brings Virginia Woolf as a successful woman who managed to stop a war by imploring writers especially women to write after she survived from her attempted suicide. Leonard, her husband just got in time to save her from drowning. 

I almost cried reading that part. It just so sensible and ugh hit me hard.

It is beautifully written taking into account that Aditi Khorana used to be a journalist before she quit to be full time writer :')

So yeah, it has been a while since I last posted any review isn't? I have few in mind but let see if I have the 'feels' to write one hahahahahahah because I just got back to read after a long hiatus. I wish I could include few quotes that I like from this novel but the novel is being borrowed by my friend - so .... yep. Hahahahahahaha!

What is your opinion regarding books with social issues? Do you have any favorite?

Drop your comment below and let's share something new.

Adios, see ya!