Wednesday, 28 December 2016

[challenge] #4: Tips Kemas Rumah/Hostel


Assalammualaikum.

Aku suka sangat mengemas, macam obses pun ada sebenarnya. Aku rasa antara sebab yang buat aku suka sangat mengemas ni adalah PLKN. Sebelum aku masuk PLKN, aku kemas jugak rumah tapi bak kata Ibu aku "Kemas rumah macam takkemas je." Ada rasa deja-vu tak? Lol. Aku jadi rajin sikit daripada biasa sejak duduk jauh dari rumah bila masuk bab kemas rumah ni.

17 tahun sebelumnya?
Biarlah rahsia~

Aku google berapa kerap sepatutnya kita kemas rumah (buang sawang/basuh tuala dan lain-lain) sebab aku tiba-tiba rasa naktahu. Selama ni aku buat semua benda berdasarkan firasat kewanitaan aku lol. Jadi aku akan kongsi apa yang aku jumpa dekat laman web Domestic CEO

#1 Tukar Cadar dan selimut

Sekurang-kurangnya sekali dalam masa seminggu atau dua minggu. Kalau kotor sangat, boleh tukar sekerap yang mungkin. Kalau aku, memang sekali dua minggu sebab aku basuh dengan tangan je. 

Ada sekali aku basuh cadar dan jemur tapi aku tak klipkan (?) maka petang tu nak menangis tengok-tengok cadar aku hilang :') Sekali kawan sebilik aku suruh check dekat bawah, dan memang ada cis. Nasib baik ada orang gumpal sumbat dekat celah pemegang tangga kalau tak jadi alas kaki gais.

#2 Tuala

Sekali seminggu. Aku pun buat sekali seminggu, cuma kalau taksempat sangat memang aku basuh sekali je dua minggu T_T 

Tahu-tahulah bila duduk asrama, ditambah dengan penyakit pemalas nakbasuh kain dengan tangan (kena ambil giliran yang panjang gila kalau nakbasuh pakai mesin basuh & duit syiling 50 sen yang selalunya takde) #SadLifeu

Ada jugak beberapa orang yang aku tahu kebiasaanya memang depa tukar tuala setiap hari takpun setiap kali selepas mandi. 


#3 Kipas Siling

Sekali bagi setiap suku tahun (4 Bulan) takpun sebulan sekali. Aku jarang buat sebab aku malas nakmendongak (em-peace.jpeg)

Tapi aku buat jugak bila nampak sawang-sawang kelabu tu mula melekat, takpun bila aku takrasa ke-efektifan kipas tu lol. Berat sangat dengan sawang. Kadang-kadang aku bersihkan sebab bosan duduk sorang-sorang dalam bilik (tepuk belakang diri sendiri)




#4 Lantai

Setiap hari. Dekat bilik asrama aku, hm segan untuk saya katakan - aku hanya menyapu di hujung minggu takpun kalau rasa berpasir sangat :') Kalau rajin, setiap dua hari sekali sekali. Semuanya bergantung pada jadual kelas sebenarnya, aku jenis yang menyapu bila takde orang dalam bilik sebab taknak menganggu bila kena tutup kipas.

Kat bilik takde mop, tapi bila aku rajin aku lap lantai (pakai kain gais, sangat old school) dengan clorox je. 

Sejak aku duduk hostel, dimana aku balik setiap cuti khas saja (Kelantan jauh sobs) aku dahdapat gelaran Bibik kalau balik rumah. Skil yang aku kutip masa dekat hostel aku praktis dekat rumah.  Asrama aku dekat universiti macam bilik je, satu bilik ada empat orang. Bukak pintu ada rak kasut dan pintu jiran-jiran sebelah/depan. Bilik dan tandas dekat luar bilik yang dikongsi dengan jiran-jiran se-tingkat se-blok.

Malangnya, aku takrasa aku orang yang layak untuk diminta sebarang tips kemas rumah T_T Apa yang aku adalah benda yang biasa orang buat jugak. Kalau wujudnya keluarbiasaan itu barangkali disebabkan betapa peliknya manusia bernama aku.

k takde sape rindu bilik stor ni gais T___T

Tuesday, 27 December 2016

[challenge] #3: satisfy your crave

Assalammualaikum

I am supposed to submit an entry yesterday but life caught me somehow. Besides, I do not know how am I supposed to write this one. To be frank, I don’t dine out frequently as much as love going out (on tight budget, mind me.) Even though I go outing almost every week (in the name of relieving stress gais) I only end up spending hours touring the bookstores and window-shopping on things I cannot buy.

Uh-uh. So Faten isn't?

Move on (finally) one of the best restaurants I would recommend hence the main subject of this entry is ... *fake drum rolls please*

Noodle Station

I wasn’t a big fan of any noodle dishes actually. It does not makes me full lol. I rather eat bread/pastries which satisfy my hunger better. Noodle just that-no-uh. However, one of my roomates successfully drag us to accompany her to Noodle Station last year. Well, she basically sogok us with the “Portion dia besar weih!”, “Sedap gila pulak tu!”, “Kalau kau taknak makan mee, nasi pun ada!” last but not least “Harga dia affordable!” and she wins. Noodle Station probably need to hire her as their ambassador per the effectiveness toward us lol.

She speaks the truth anyway so it doesn’t matter.
Springy noodle with fish ball and
fried chicken wan tan (RM13.67)

Noodle Station has a wide-range of noodles (where ya think the name is) and western cuisine. The portion is large enough to tame the monster in me and that's all I need. I did try their Chicken Chop once and it is good. 

I'm not a fussy eater, whatever being served to me is a pass as long as it makes me full. Happy tummy, happy me~

The Noodle Station in MidValley which I usually frequent if I ache for a heavier meal is quite secluded unless you usually went to the cinema. The restaurant is located at T-042A, the third floor, not that far (I really meant it) from the escalator towards the cinema.

If you enjoy noodles, well, Noodle Station might be the best one for you! Hiks.

Till the next post :D

Sunday, 25 December 2016

[challenge] #2: Resepi (pemalas) Potato Crouqette

Assalammualaikum.

Aku bukan manusia yang tahu sangat memasak. Tapi, aku suka tengok video makanan dan kadang-kadang akan ada masa datangnya angin kus-kus timur laut (kot) yang akan buat aku rasa nak memasak. Selalunya aku akan buat pencuci mulut, takpun benda yang ringkas ya ampun tahap kau pun rasa naknangis. 

Hm. Jangan risau, aku bukan nak kongsi resepi masak air sahabat sekalian. 

source: Google
Potato Croquette sebenarnya makanan Jepun yang aku tengok dalam drama Good Morning Call. Satu-satunya makanan Jepun yang aku rasa aku mampu buat. Kalau dekat Malaysia, tempat yang aku jumpa Croquette (secara taksengaja selepas kempunan berbulan T_T) dekat AEON Midvalley. Siap ada isi macam-macam lagi, contohnya krim dan labu.

Maaflah anda terpaksa menggunakan kreativiti anda untuk membayangkan setiap langkah. Saya tak sempat ambil gambar setiap kali saya masak, tahu-tahu dah habis.

Bahan-bahan:
Kentang (4 biji potong empat)
Telur (1)
Tepung Kentucky (lol, resepi asal guna serbuk roti tapi saya miskin)
Garam (secukup rasa)

++Tambahan: (taknak pun takpe)
1- Bawang Besar (tapi aku selalu guna bawang merah sebab dekat rumah aku bersepah bawang merah je) 
2- Lobak merah atau mana-mana sayur yang dirasakan sesuai.
3- Udang (potong kecik2) / daging atau ayam kisar
4- Susu sejat (aku letak saja-saja, dalam resepi asal depa tambah fresh cream)

Nota kaki: Bahan 1-3 kena goreng (saute) sekali.

Cara-cara:
1. Masukkan kentang dalam periuk, takperlu buang kulit lagi pun takpe. Isi air sampai menutupi semua kentang. Masukkan sedikit garam dan rebus sampai empuk (15-20 minit)

2. Buang air/sejat kentang sampai takde air. Kalau korang rebus tanpa kulit, boleh terus lenyek kentang dengan garfu mengikut tekstur yang korang nak. Kalau belum buang kulit, faham-faham lah. Lol.

3. Masukkan bahan tambahan dalam kentang yang dah dilenyek, kalau ada lah. Aku malas. Kalau rajin sikit, aku goreng bawang je.

4. Tambah telur. Tapi tengok jugak, kadang-kadang aku guna sebiji telur pun rasa banyak sangat. Jangan sampai kentang lenyek korang jadi cair macam air.

5. Bahagikan kentang tu, kalau dalam bekas bulat boleh bahagikan macam pizza. Takpun gasak je, ambik sesudu dan buat bentuk bulat kecik. Biasanya memang boleh bentuk walaupun dia melekit sikit dekat tangan (atau melekat banyak)

Nota kaki: Walaupun semalas mana pun korang, jangan buat bentuk sebesar tapak tangan sebab malas ;’) payah nak goreng. Melainkan korang pro.

5. Salut dengan tepung Kentucky betul-betul kalau taknak Potato Croquette korang tinggal kulit sahaja :’) Takpayah salut telur dulu melainkan korang nakguna serbuk roti.

6. Goreng dalam minyak penuh sampai warna perang ataupun korang punya firasat mengatakan air tangan korang dahmasak. Sebenarnya, takperlu goreng lama pun sebab bahan lain dah masak awal-awal.

7. Angkat, makan. Kadang-kadang aku tibai makan dengan nasi cicah sos.

Aku rasakan Potato Croquette versi Malaysia sebenarnya Bergedil  Tapi aku taksuka kentang salut telur macam tu je. 

Mungkin aku patut cari apa perbezaan bergedil dengan croquette?
Lol.

Have fun cooking! 

ADIOS!

(Nota Kaki: Penulis kebiasaannya memasak mengikut citarasa dan mulut dia sendiri.)

Saturday, 24 December 2016

[challenge] #1: digging about me



Assalammualaikum.

#1 Fatin Azira

Is basically the names I used both in blogging and the real world (read: its my real name lol) I prefer people calling me Faten rather than Azira because that is how it usually is. There is certain occasion where certain people opt to more heart-flattering way of calling my name. 

Using my full name in conversation, obviously. 
Lol, I'm weird. Sorry.

#2 20 (in 2017)

I have been feeling quite glum for the past few weeks and I guess one of the reasons is because of me hitting the next digit, the twenty. I overthink almost everyday, however leaving the teen-years makes the habit worse. It was the same feeling pouring when I was in Form 1, leaving the primary huha huha club lol.

But love and life goes on, gotta make a nice picturisque drawing of it!

#3 Loves

 

1. Books - I love books and the course I am pursuing right now begging me to read books, a lot, ranging from short american literature all the way to sonnet (poetry btw)
2- Bangtan - I can't resist the need to include my love interest too lol :') 
3- Flowers - I wasn't a big flower enthusiast, but I love them. The colors especially.
4- The Sea - As I mention previously on my other entry, I love everything about the sea. It makes me think harder yet at the same time soothe me.
5- Coffee    - which I tried to cut down a little bit right now because I don't like the fact that I am addicted to it. I used to drink 3 up to 5 cups a day which totally bad. I know, I repent now. 
6- Building - Ipoh is bae, the place where I realize the loves in me towards them.
7- Walking - Maybe because I can't drive? Lol. I usually enjoy walking to go anywhere and it totally fine even without any company.

#4 Hates

When I dislike certain things, it shows on my face. I used to draw a distinct line between the things that I like and hate. However, the line kind a get blurred out nowadays. I tried to appreciate and understand those so-called hate habits led to it. Of course, action that is undeniably wrong is wrong. 

Orange is not black, that in particular is a fact. But for me, finding the reason might help me from being too judgmental. 

#5 Things People (might lol) Don't Know About Me

+ I used to write stories and design poster to let out emotions but nowadays I tried to contemplate more while writing one. I even have my writing log which I tried to jot down any inspiration I have before proceeds.

+ I can only handle mild spiciness in any dishes but the spicier the meal is, the more it makes me feels like eating it. Which. I. Cannot. Duh. 
me : *done talking in Kelantanese on phone with my Ibu*
xx  :  kecek kelate sikit punya lembut, cakap standard terus kasar.
me : *sepak kerusi*
+ I used Kelantanese dialect only to certain people since I'm not that good. Instead, standard bm mode on when I talk in daily basis.
+ If goldfish is associated with three second memory span myth, I can be related with having a short interest span. Lol. I get boring easily, unless I force myself to be interested in whatever it is.



[challenge] Cabaran 25 Hari Blogging


Syarat-syarat: 
  1. Tak ada tarikh tamat dan tarikh mula yang spesifik.
  2. Tag 2 orang rakan blogger lain supaya lebih ramai yang join.
  3. Copy both banner and kalau rajin boleh backlink kan semula ke blog [http://nurainahanis.blogspot.my/2016/12/cabaran-25-hari-blogging.html]
  4. Terpulanglah korang nak buat dalam bahasa apa pun, jangan buat bahasa alien sudah.



Saya tahu mereka merupakan antara manusia yang sentiasa busy dengan kerja :') tapi nak tag jugak sebab that what friends do sometimes (read: annoys other)

Zaa | Syarah (hi btw!)





Monday, 19 December 2016

039: an update



Assalammualaikum

After probably two months of holiday, spent by laying at home while doing nothing aside from the normal house chores, hours of reading and watching movies, to be bored of the routine is a yes.

I am going to register for my degree programme in January 2017, another one month to spent (wisely) before gasping breath in the midst of works. It might be crazy, but I start to miss my university life tsk. But heck you all know - it just a temporary feeling because once you get back being busy; cuti is all you wish for. I mean you can't escape from 'can everyday be cuti from all those assignment and stuff' thought isn't? Learning is fun, no kidding but having to be assessed (more assignment!) - that is when all the mess start with. 

Ok no, I love exam. Who doesn't?

And, it's been ages since I last travel by train. I mean, the train, not Komuter, LRT or the latest MRT lol but its the all the way back version of Keretapi Tanah Melayu Berhad which used to be with no air-cond tehee. In Kelantan, it is actually common for the person to travel by train. Even on the daily basis, the train station is filled by citizens around the area who wish to travel or simply go shopping to other part of Kelantan lol. However, the train station would be really crowded by students  who live in a boarding school specifically on Thursay and Saturday. The students usually goes back and forth from school and their house once a week/fortnight. 

One thing that did suprise me the first time I came to Kelantan is the number of sekolah berasrama harian around here. Even my school is Sekolah Berasrama Harian with almost 2000 Form 1 up to Form 6 students.

Back to the topic, I went to Tanah Merah few weeks ago to settle down the Entrance Fee at Bank Muamalat (the nearest I could ago aside from KB) Beside, the distance between the train station and the bank is only a stone's throw away, I can manage! I love walking. I even make Zainab, my roomate, walks from my uni to the shopping mall for  20 minutes (sampai habis sem aku kena bahan sobs)

It is pleasing to change the view once in a while. I have been spending too much time in the house, not able to go out. Breath in new environment without having to spent a single worry is a blessed :)

Alhamdulillah.

p/s: the train is so on-time I almost cried. I wish it is like this in KL lol.


Friday, 16 December 2016

038: have you done enough?


I have been feeling stressed out for the past few weeks. Worst, I don't even feels like talking to anyone about it because building a cave for you to hide is much better. The thing about hiding is, once you found comfort in those darkness its hard to reach the outside world again. Either because the bright sunlight give out the burning sensation which scares you out or it just you... attached to the solace found in the cave.

"Have you done enough?" is basically the question that had always been the source of my tangled mess. You see, I had always been forcing myself to express better - grab everything serves on your plates because you had no idea when the chances would come again. However, I keep wanting for more, something that beyond my reach, even those serves exclusively on others plate, not mine. It's normal to feel awful yet I want to upgrade myself. 

Around that time, I am genuinely grateful for all small conversations yet warms wishes (or confessions?) from friends and strangers. The "hey" message I received instantly because I accidentally pour my true feeling via social media, the "you inspired me" or simply few comments posted on my writings really made my day. You had no idea how over the moon I feels like? Eventhough I wasn't the right person if you're asking for writing tips...............

It is hard to make time once you get busy, but still, nothing changes. Remember, time does not equal to love. More time spent does not mean that they love you more. Well, sometimes I guess. I seriously don't know. (Lady in messed here by the way?) I would not argue that of course, I will feel on cloud nine if they do willingly spent a part of their time with me heh. It is the matter of heart after all.

May Allah blesses your days (and ahead) :D
Assalammualaikum.



Wednesday, 7 December 2016

037: shooting dreams


“Awak?” Itu cukup membuatkan aku yang sedang menunduk kebawah mengangkat kepala. Tersentak, sebenarnya dari tadi berharap sesi perkenalan ringkas ini akan berhenti atau skip je apabila tiba giliran aku.

Tsk.

“Nama saya, Fatin Azira. Er, course, BENL.” 


The only BEN-student in this hall, apparently.

Dia senyum.

“Mesti nakjadi cikgu ni?”

Definitely not a teacher!” Taken aback, tapi dia masih senyum. Entah kenapa aku jadi agresif bila jurusan asasi yang aku ambil selalu dikaitkan dengan kerjaya itu sahaja. 

“Lepastu nakjadi apa?”

Jeda.
Satu ruang lecture hall itu menanti jawapan dari aku.

“Saya nakkerja dengan bank.”

“Kenapa?" Dia punya aura wartawan dahmula memancar tapi yang anehnya, aku takrasa janggal. Situasinya seperti kau sedang berbual dengan abang sendiri – walaupun kau takde abang. Har. 

"Mesti ada sebab kenapa.” Sambungnya lagi apabila tiada suara yang keluar dari mulut aku. Hanya riak kosong.

“Macam saya, saya pilih pilot dengan journalist sebab saya naktravel free.” Gelak.

Memang rasa dia macam ada big brother.

I don’t know, I just want to work in a bank. But definitely, not a teacher.” 

Dan dia hanya angguk sambil senyum. 

Aku sendiri taktahu kenapa profesion yang satu itu takmelekat di hati. Bukannya aku benci kerjaya sebagai cikgu tapi disebabkan aku memang kurang dalam skil mengajar orang, aku jadi seperti ini.

Berapa kali juga aku ulang pandang wajahnya di skrin sewaktu bersiaran atau sedang menjalankan tugasnya sebagai wartawan dalam slaid yang disediakan dan dia yang sedang berdiri dihadapan aku. Lain, itu yang mampu aku kata. 

Aha.

“Cuba awak semua brainstorm diri sendiri, cari apa kelebihan yang diri awak ada tapi orang sebelah takde.”

“Contohnya, awak pandai dalam fotografi walaupun awak dari jurusan Human Science.”

No harm trying. Awak cuba jinakkan diri dalam perkara-perkara yang boleh bawa awak ke arah impian awak. Grab setiap sekecil-kecil peluang yang diberikan kepada awak, kita takkan tahu sama ada peluang tu akan datang lagi.”

“Pastikan konfiden tu sentiasa ada.”

“Jadi opportunist.”

Aku masih explore apa yang aku mahu untuk diri sendiri. Masih mencari apa yang diri mampu lakukan. Mencari apa kelebihan yang diri sendiri ada yang tiada pada orang lain. Dan seeing him in person, memang bagi vibe manusia yang sentiasa optimis. 

Senyum je selalu.
Cara berdiri pun nampak sangat konfiden dia memancar. Hahaha.

Explore, taksalah mencuba. Baru tahu target sebenar nak shoot.

1/9/2015

Career Talk, Khairil Amri – TV AL-Hijrah News Caster.


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Assalammualaikum.

Boleh dikatakan, setiap minggu mesti akan ada talk dekat universiti aku :') Blessed. Tapi selalunya hari yang ada talk mesti aku ada latihan silat - tapi bukan itu kesnya. Career Talk ni being held for a week, taksilap. Aku sempat pergi yang Khairil Amri je, yang lain taksempat (sebab clash dengan latihan silat atau 'jauh' sangat dari course aku)

Aku tulis entri atas ni untuk diri aku sendiri baca, bukan untuk di-publish dekat blog sebenarnya. Memang perasaan tulen tanpa tapisan lol. Lepas attend talk tu, aku rasa macam ada sesuatu yang tak mampu aku nakluah, it makes me contemplate a lot even after days. I felt a bit different than I used to. Maka, aku decide untuk catat dalam MS Words. Juga, sebagai peringatan lembut untuk diri sendiri untuk aku yang mudah terhuyung-hayang.

By 2016, it's getting better ;) I managed to do something, grab few opportunities, discover the other side of me, express myself more than I used to (it can't be helped if you're taking Public Speaking classes lol).

Hoping 2017 would be a great year too.
Degree life.
Being 20.
There's more to explore, I believe.

Thursday, 24 November 2016

036: My 5 Top Favourite OSTs

Assalammualaikum

OST is an abbreviation/acronym that stands for Original/Official Sound Track. Music undeniably plays an important role to trigger emotions from audience, if we are talking about movies.  Sometimes, we don't even notice how these few songs be it with lyrics or simply just a strum of guitar being played as the background music, it gives effect to people. 

It triggers, it gives boost. Because without music, the movie kinda feels incomplete.
K, awkward.
Lol.

I had peculiar taste, theres song that I love simply because of the emotion rushed over me rather than the singer or good lyrics only. It has been that way for a long time I never remember. These are few songs (more to come lol) of my favourites


Kanojo Wa Uso Wo Aishisugiteru [The Liar and His Lover] OSTs

I don't even remember why I decided to watch this movie other than because it has been too long in my folder. I fall instantly to all the songs in the movie >.< I can't pick which one I particularly like because I like all the songs. Basically, everything. Either its being sang by Crude Play, Riko, or simply being hummed by Aki. (Humming guys! I fall in love with hums.)

 Scholar Who Walks The Night OSTs

OSTs, honestly doesn't only those with lyrics or being sang. It could also consist of melody/background music as I have mentioned earlier. Scholar Who Walks The Night is one of the dramas which have a really good music background that triggers emotion greatly. No argue, the wittiness, suspense, sadness, happy - well triggered :') even if you only listen to the song.

Without You by BEAST is my favourite, I think it is the main OSTs in the drama (correct me if I'm wrong) as for the background music, I really love Tears of the Flower, Hidden Heart and Waltz of Memory.

Jealousy Incarnate OST Part 3

Step Step by Suran is my favourite among the other! It gives me this sweet feelings which I don't know how to further describe. It is an English song. I guess, some might feels disturbed by the pronunciation of the lyrics but I found it cute. It radiates this jazz-ey feeling lol. I listened a lot to this song when I want to write fictions, for inspiration.
Not to mention, the drama is worth a try too :) You might recalled your first unrequited love lol.


Descendants of The Sun OSTs

THIS ONE, everyone cannot argue how amazing the OSTs are from Always sang by Chen EXO featuring PUNCH to How Can I Love You by XIA Junsu.

They even did special stage in Music Bank lol! Besides, This Love by Davichi is also nominated for the Best OST in MAMA2016.







A Gentleman Dignity OST Part 5

My Love by Jonghyun CNBLUE is bae :') This song had been my favourite since forever, termasuklah its drama. Probably, the first OST I first pay attention to. Maybe, because of the guitar. I don't know. I just love it a lot.








So, what yours?

Friday, 18 November 2016

035: things that happened



Assalammualaikum 

#1 I am officially a graduate of foundation studies :') I know, I know. It is only my first tiny small step towards something much bigger and challenging but I am allowed to celebrate right? *throws confetti* There is a lot of things I need to know, need to do, heck the grammar also need a major work before I can properly announced myself as a language graduate. 

I am happy, though.
Besides, of having no job right now other than helping my Ibu at home. (Like seriously, adik aku ni pakai baju tukar lima minit sekali ke apa?!)
#2 Wattpad. It's not like I am new to Wattpad or what. I used to read the English ones (Noelle's for example did an amazing job in her pieces) but I decided to stop because sometimes, the story is just toooooo much for me. Beberapa hari ni, I keep on curi masa untuk baca apa-apa (selalunya penulis bahasa melayu) to be inspired after such a long time the application takdisentuh. I badly in need of inspiration and revision for my writings. The do's and the don'ts from the perspective of a reader. 

#3 The Princess Bride is something that I watched out of curiosity. I am looking for sources that I can use as a reference for a story I am working on. It is a homework if you ask me lol. I find its hard to picture what goes on the plate each day for a royal, crown prince specifically. The Princess Bride, however, is amusing for me (though it. The awkward acting, the cheesy lines yet hilarious are something that totally out of my league but I like it anyway. 

It was produced in 1987 ;-; yep, it is long time ago. But, the most important things, I enjoy the ride :') I had develop a weird taste when it comes to movies and dramas. There are a lot of things which I found particularly good when others didn't say so. But what matters is me, I am the one who judging lol. Recently, I 'somehow' have this desire to watch 'old' movies (or classic? Idk)

#4 The Great Gatsby.  I was going to buy the book at first. Yet, I then decided (more like pujuk myself) to watch the movie instead because I (desperately) want to buy another book lol. I'm broke okay (tapi nakbeli buku lagi) Back to the movie, I wasn't a fan of Leonardo DiCaprio, though Titanic is crazy famous. I don't know, I just don't. Yet I do acknowledge that he IS a good actor. I just can't resist his charm in this movie though. His gestures, his actions, his lines - everything is almost perfect. Everything is soooooo gentleman, Jay Gatsby. I kinda getting carried away by this movie, the emotions and feelings came rushing like a tsunami. 

I should read the book, later obviously.


Saturday, 12 November 2016

034: of 'saturated'

“This is the world we live in, I introduce you.” Sarkastik yang tidak mampu disimpan, sebelum dituruti dengan keluh lemah dari mulut. Berita yang sedang bersiaran membuatkan kepala menggeleng perlahan. Air mata laju bergenang dihujung tubir, menanti masa mahu keluar. Mudah benar hati terusik dengan perkara sebegini.

"Are you okay?"

Supersaturated, itu yang dia rasa sekarang. Banyak sangat perkara yang berlaku disekeliling. Tambah lagi dengan informasi bersepah bukan sekadar di laman media malah laman sosial. Dua-dua  membingungkan, entah mana satu yang mampu dipercaya. Tiada barangkali?

“I’m sorry. I wasn’t in the mood to be frank.” Tulus aku meminta maaf selepas sekian lama membiarkan masa berlalu tanpa sebarang kata mengisi ruang. “Saya cuma takpercaya, ini dunia kita sekarang. Realitinya”

Ketenteraman seolah-olah hilang. Keadilan seakan tidak lagi wujud di sini. Semua orang ego , mahu teguh dengan agenda sendiri, harapan yang moganya mampu dipegang terkikis. Jujur, tidak mampu aku meletakkan kepercayaan sepenuhnya tulus melainkan buat yang Satu.

Namun, apa yang lagi memedihkan apabila dirinya hanya mampu berdiri tanpa membantu. Tanpa ada kuasa untuk melakukan apa-apa.

“I’m better off now, it’s getting late.” Kerusi aku tolak. Dia angguk, tidak banyak soal. Faham dengan gelodak perasaan, dengan aku yang kekusutan mahu sendiri.

“Assalammualaikum.” Purse dan kunci kereta diambil dari atas meja, meninggalkan dia dan teh tarik yang sudah suam gamaknya tidak berusik lansung.
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Supersaturation is a term I learnt in Social Studies, an effect derived from social medias that came into action when a person become overwhelmed with overloaded information or people. Aku takperasan sebenarnya, but then, when I started feeling depressed over all the news I read from Twitter regarding the arousing political situations, that's it - I need to escape for awhile. 
Mungkin disebabkan 'benda-benda' ni yang terlalu banyak dalam kepala sampai satu masa aku rasa taktahu nakpercaya yang mana satu. Walaupun orang kata terang-terangan that one particular side is wrong, I cannot bring myself to be in total agreement in them. 
It wasn't my style, afterall.
Aku sejujurnya taktahu nakbuat apa yet I know yang sit on one's hand basically won't do anything good. I guess, I better keep myself away from social medias for awhile and read books instead. Yes, books will do for the time being.

p/s: It's embarassing but duh I get pretty emotional reading Kazuo Ishiguro's Crooner (Nocturnes: Five Stories of Music and Nightfall)

Monday, 7 November 2016

[Review] The Museum of Heartbreak by Meg Leder


Published: June 2016
Publisher: Simon Pulse
Pages: 288
Genre: Contemporary, Young Adult

Synopsis:
In this ode to all the things we gain and lose and gain again, seventeen-year-old Penelope Marx curates her own mini-museum to deal with all the heartbreaks of love, friendship, and growing up.

Welcome to the Museum of Heartbreak.

Well, actually, to Penelope Marx’s personal museum. The one she creates after coming face to face with the devastating, lonely-making butt-kicking phenomenon known as heartbreak.

Heartbreak comes in all forms: There’s Keats, the charmingly handsome new guy who couldn’t be more perfect for her. There’s possibly the worst person in the world, Cherisse, whose mission in life is to make Penelope miserable. There’s Penelope’s increasingly distant best friend Audrey. And then there’s Penelope’s other best friend, the equal-parts-infuriating-and-yet-somehow-amazing Eph, who has been all kinds of confusing lately.

But sometimes the biggest heartbreak of all is learning to let go of that wondrous time before you ever knew things could be broken. 

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Assalammualaikum

Thought:

To be honest, it was quite amusing how the chapters are organized through a series of museum labelling/tagging done by the main character, Penelope Marx. Written, obviously based on Penelope’s point of view where the readers are brought to discover her museum of heartbreak. There is novel from Keats. There also a sweatshirt which on permanent loan from Eph which later dia mintak balik.

Sassy macam biasa.
Lol.

Penelope shows us that heartbreak could happen in many ways. She suffers heartbreak in relationships with her two bestfriends, Eph and Audrey, her crush that soon should be only throw to cliff and more. However,  the crumpling feelings remained same. She suffered heartbroken in different degrees caused by the loose relationship. I would say, this book wasn’t only the normal contemporary books, its also depicts the coming of age for Penelope where she grows stronger despite all the heartbreaks. She might dwell a little, but thats it.

Penelope is basically me. Lol. I could understand how sometimes we want to believe that our decision is right regardless what others might say, that it is okay to believe with ours intuitution, that we could actually change people. But we’re not.

We can’t, sometimes.
There is ‘thing’ that beyond our control.

Favourite Quote:
“Things change, Penelope; people change. Sometimes you get hurt. And sometimes you’re the one doing the hurting.”

Recommendation:

The synopsis had already adressed few of the conflicts in this novel honestly. But, read the novel for more. I highly suggest this novel for those who fancies contemporary genre pieces. And for those who wasn’t, then it might be a good try to familiarise with this sort of genre. Lol.

Friday, 4 November 2016

033: of pouring your heart out



Assalammualaikum.

I write. A lot. But sometimes, its hard to find a proper word, the right word to explain what actually goes in-out of your mind. Yet, we still find a way to express it in words. Pouring all those chocked feelings because we just want to shout it out. Verbally, or atleast on paper.

I used to pen it out, either in my long list of unpublished drabble (sometimes I do lol) either it tooks form of fiction as a facade or simply the real dialogue, situations. Things. I write with emotions, sometimes to extend where I can't continue finish the piece because I get all emotional over ten words typed in the computer. Can you even believe diz? T_T Aku ada soft-spot yang takboleh disentuh lansung, memang terabur emosi aku dibuatnya.

But when it comes to reality, the real life - I wasn't that expressive, all way long since primary school. Even my bestfriends prove this, saying how they were so curious about what I actually kept to myself whichI would usually just brush it off thinking that no ones want to listen my stories. I am that type of person who pays close-attention to reaction. I have trust issue, guys lol. When I found ones that could intently give their attention to me, I'm good. Fixing that habits now, tho.

I talked about this to one of my lecturers (sucessfully without tearing up) that I thought those certain incidents happened back when I was younger did not affects me at all but nah, its shaped me into this me right. Myself did get affected, afterall. See, I get emotional easily. Lol. It happens, yet I still believe the idea that the past is the things that shape you now and I am, sincerely, grateful of where I am standing right now.

Dan sebenarnya, aku rasa bersalah sebab takmampu nakcakap 'I Miss You' even 'I Love You' towards my loved ones. It just something that I can't bring myself to do. Few of my friends did pick about this once - telling how they are the only one who miss me and me not TT_TT I can just blurt the words out, just to satisfy them but that is not my style. Aku selalu gelak je lol lepastu dengar bebelan panjang depa. Halwa telinga.

But being verbal is important right?
Being verbally expressive is also important is it?

Capturing the gestures, emotions, tones, most importantly the words lagi best by being verbally expressive.
Lol.
But theres nothing wrong if you find letters and words yang disusun atas kertas lagi senang untuk mewakili emosi waktu tu.
Half-half.

Ana used to say this to me, "Ha elok lah, nanti suami isteri main balas surat je. Bercakap guna memo dengan kertas."

Choi.
I can be sweeter than that.
Tapi kena cari calon dulu ah.
Eh.

May Allah ease everything :DD

Monday, 24 October 2016

032: Hues of Promise


Title: Hues Of Promise
Genre: Light Angst
Type: Short Drama [two-shot]
Language: Bahasa Melayu (90%) 
(p/s: credit goes to Zaa since she gave a drabble which I later turned into this one lol)

Read it here

Assalammualaikum 

Lol.
Kali ini, Hues of Promise. 

Bila dahlama takmenulis.
Bila dahlama takbermain dengan aksara dan warna-warna perkataan.
Bila dahlama taksentuh photoshop.

Harapnya, ini satu permulaan yang bagus setelah sekian lama lol.
Salut! (bye)

p/s: tajuk bahasa inggeris sebab penulis takmampu nakcari perkataan melayu yang sesuai T_T

Sunday, 23 October 2016

[Review] Sukina Hito ga Iru Koto | A Girl & Three Sweethearts


Episodes: 10
Director: Hiro Kanai, Ryo Tanaka, Tomonobu Moriwaki
Writer: Sayaka Kuwamura
Network: Fuji TV
[Plot] Misaki Sakurai (Mirei Kiritani) has not dated in a long time. She has focused on her work as a pâtissier to eventually run her own business. One day, she gets fired from work. She then meets her first love from high school Chiaki Shibasaki (Shohei Miura). Misaki Sakurai works part-time at Chiaki’s restaurant and also stays there. While she lives with Chiaki at his restaurant, she realizes that Chiaki's two younger brothers Toma (Shuhei Nomura) and Kanata (Kento Yamazaki) also live there. - AsianWiki

Assalammualaikum

Finished this drama, yesterday c: Just incase I might forget (or forgot?) the storyline before I write the review. Sebenarnya, aku taknak tengok drama ni lol sebab I can smell the cliche-ness from this dorama and the title is too plain (came from someone who loves metaphore lol) for me. Something happened, I have this sudden eager-ness (you can say) to watch this drama. Well, not because Kento Yamazaki (who played as L in Death Note). I don't know, I'm weird. Don't judge. Lol.

 Let's talk about the drama now, shall we?

This is a good drama especially for those who enjoys contemporary-family-themed story. The settings were mainly situated in the sea and summer. Terfikir jugak, is it a summer love or what? But it's not. This story speak-out about dream, family relationship and love. 

It has few conflicts, to named a few, Kanata hates Misaki lol. Kanata is the only chef in Sea Sons Restaurants, he wouldn't let Misaki (a patissier) to get into his territories, the kitchen because he thinks Misaki works at the restaurant for the sake of getting Chiaki's love. 

The conflict around the brothers also quite interesting since I wasn't expecting it by the looks of how they are closed to each other.

Favourite Character(s)

It would be Kanata! (obviously) For me, he played his role as a blunt/cold man really well. He doesn't look that awkward and seriously - I sometimes feels the need of sepak his mouth because hes too heartless, too direct. As the story evolves, his consideration towards others could be seen and those reasons too.

I cannot argue more.

Favourite Scene

   




*tembus bumi*

We always have the desire to achieve big. We want to see the big result as fast as we could. Hence, we would take hugeeeeeeeee steps in order to achieve it sooner. But when we came across an obstacle, some might be able to get it through with few scars, probably, some might - retreat and surrender. 

Jadi Muslim, kita memang digalakkan untuk ada cita-cita yang besar. Bila berdoa, jangan minta syurga saja, berdoa supaya kita ditempatkan di Syurga Jannah - the highest one. Tapi jangan lupa, untuk capai setiap impian yang besar itu kita mulakan dengan yang kecil-kecil ni. It wasn't about getting your desired dream right at that point. Mungkin Allah dah tetapkan yang waktu ini, kita hanya sesuai dapat rezeki sebanyak ini c: Allah Maha Mengetahui. Yang penting, keep working on it, don't you think so?

Special Notes

For your information, Sayaka Kawamura is the one who wrotes the script for Strobe Edge too.

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Catch the drama here, and share your opinion on it! ;)

Saturday, 22 October 2016

031: interlude



Assalammualaikum

It's been a week since I finish my foundation, spent few days at my aunt house somewhere located in Kuala Lumpur just because I cannot resist the temptation of playing with the twins (boy x girl). Not to say that, this final semester exhaust me a lot that I barely find my own 'me time'. Yet, because it is the last semester.
Not to mention, I went to Tanjung Harapan in Pelabuhan Klang, Selangor and MashaAllah, the view is very splendid. The breeze, the smell - everything about that place in particular is good. Healing. I mean, that is just the kind of place for me. Limitless sky. Wide sea (is it). An open space - as I hate to be cramped in a (very) crowded place. Shopping complex is fine. Lol. No, I do not have any phobia. Thank you.

Now, here I am. Back home, finally. 

I already draw out few things I want to do before pursuing my degree next year. The online application had been settled, I just need to wait for the result on the 1st of December which is almost two months away. I decided to learn another language (yeay!) by myself and no, its not Korean - though I would be glad to do so. I'm learning French (I keep thinking is it because the drama Les Entrepreter or what lol). At first, I thought I would do Greek (can't decide either modern/ancient) or Latin. But cannot, I'm not confident as soon as I googled the Greek Alphabets. Nu-oh, maybe next time. I will need a tutor for that.

 I started watching A girl and Three Sweethearts , a japanese drama. I also managed to finish a novel written by Sophie Kinsiella - I've Got Your Number (which suprisingly good). No wonder she's famous ;') Inn Shaa Allah, I might post reviews on it later.

And last but not least, I'm so into Mingyu of Seventeen nowadays.

Image result for mingyu gif
Bye.

Saturday, 17 September 2016

030: of variables



Assalammualaikum

Input would produce output. Those output however would always be affected by variables. Be it, the circumstances, pressure, situation, might be the people itself. As a result, no matter how cliche its going to sound right now - it would affect us. 

To me, I had always be that person who feels comfortable in my own comfort zone. I had my line drawn to certain degree where its speak as the farthest I could go out of it. If situation does not require me to do so, I refuse to be out of my zone, even the latter one. And this past few days, the zone had been breached. By variables beyond my expectations T_______T which mean war.

Freaking war, yang sebolehnya aku tersangatlah malas nakterlibat. Simply, because I (admit) am lazy. I feels weird, let just do not talk about how many time I used to say that we need to be out of comfort zone to experience much bigger-exciting-ly adventures in the world. I'm spoiled brat.

Lol. 


Tiba-tiba teringat, an anime where the main character just love being the 'grey' in the black-white world ;'D My feelings. But, I would do it anyway because my comfort zone's line tu stretchable. Dan flexible. Barangkali. Hahaha. Messed-up sungguh.

Sorry, I need to console my heart by writing ._. 


"Kalau tak sampai bila-bila takde pengalaman." - Kak Farihah

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My current favourites:

Songs (jam!)
  1.  방탄소년단 (BTS) WINGS Short Film #7 AWAKE
  2. BTS Jungkook - If You (King of Mask Singer)
  3. BOYS24 [Unit Red] - Starlight
*sebab sekarang tengah mood kpop lol*

Drama 
  1. Moon Lover - Scarlet Heart Ryeo
  2. Moonlight Drawn By Clouds 
  3. Till I Met You (James Rheid x Nadine Lustre) ; its phillipines drama (100++ eps)
*click the link to the download page I usually use :D

Adios!

Thursday, 1 September 2016

029: finding me



Assalammualaikum.

A glimpse over the series of events I have experienced for the past few months, and now it is time to bid farewell. Those time when it doesn't look as promising as it is now. The time where I still confused, puzzled about the choices have been made. Finding my own identities. The crisis. The changes and so. The catastrophe.The sweet sorrow. The everything that happened, for reason of course.

Yet, for the past few months I have seen myself grow up. Exploring things outside my comfort zone. Write a lot. Shares a lot. Mingle with people rather than spending all my time alone (the wall still up, if you ask me lol) and bear with me no matter how grumpy I might be once in a while. Drag me outside. Wait for me. Trust me even though I refuse to acknowledge it at first. Helps me discover the losing me.

Yep, the losing me.
The fading me.

The future might seems blurry right now. We don't know either we would meet again but let just strive for the best. Que sera sera, whatever will be, will be - the future's not ours to see. Lol. 

Last but not least,

"Oleh tu, sahabat, bercita-citalah! Pancangkan cita-cita itu setinggi mungkin. Iringi dengan kesungguhan, perjuangan dan pengorbanan untuk mencapainya. Semoga Allah memperkenankan cita-cita itu." - Wak Duku, Rooftop Rants p352

Sunday, 14 August 2016

028: rants #2


Missing the building, Ipoh and Benz.


Assalammualaikum

Untuk dapatkan sesuatu memang perlukan usaha kan? Rhetorical question. To be honest, I've been quite lazy for the past few weeks. You know, being lazy? Like super lazy, I don't study and spent almost all of my time watching drama and sleep. Like heck, I sleep a loooooooooot.  Lol, not something to be proud of. 

But somehow I kinda figured out that we define certain habits differently. For me, being lazy is when you do not prioritize things that you need to. Aku merungut je depan roomates aku - "Weih, aku malas ah." and their reaction would be like ....................... "Ah kau, menipu je."

Me creys TT___________TT

Despite all those things, I decided to change. Because being lazy is hard. You missed a lot of important things since you're so occupied with activities that does not actually bring any good to yourself. At some point, it did brings something like as a stress reliever lol. It is easier to fall asleep in class since I cannot brain the topic taught in class - if not, the blur-iness. Lepastu, aku start ah jadi grumpy. Muka lansung takmau senyum dan stress. Gila tak stres, duduk dalam kelas tapi satu benda takmelekat. Hari Khamis (full class from 9 in the morning to 6 pm) lagi teruk T_T


I spent my weekends (Friday/Saturday/Sunday) by doing revision and prepared notes for class. Jadi, masa weekdays takdelah berat sangat sebab malam Isnin dan Rabu memang khas untuk silat (until midnight usually), kalau tengok jadual aku the next day (Selasa dan Khamis) tu memang kelas berat ah. Balik kelas silat penat, jarang dah nakbukak buku untuk belajar. Entah macam mana our previous YDP (president) who is Architecture (AED) student boleh maintain je buat gua setiap semester dalam senarai dekan. The irony, that's the thing about participating in clubs, your time-management memang kena pro. 


My business notes by using Papers from MUJI and Sharpie subsidi Jenab lol

Lepastu, time for myself - either one from those three days. Keluar yang pastinya dari mahallah, depan universiti aku pun takpe dah. Sobs, need to look for other buildings aside from the one here. Takpun pergi safe haven (read: bookstore) 

Dan bercakap pasal kedai buku - aku frust gila selepas going up to the third level of The Garden Mall, Midvalley only to find out that my Borders Bookstore has been replaced with korean restaurant. Yes, a restaurant. Luluh hati saya, sobs. Now, I need to go to Times Square if I want to visit Borders Bookstore which I don't favor. 

Aku taksuka monorel.

Until the next time, adios!