Saturday, 24 October 2015

002 : rant

Assalammualaikum ._.

Bila aku kembali menulis selepas beberapa lama berhenti dari post sebarang entri setiap minggu, aku mula fikir semula satu benda;

Apa yang aku rant(s) selama ni?

Lulz.
Aku takrasa apa yang aku dulu selalu rasa. Adakah ini bermakna aku dah membesar jadi manusia yang dah memakan segala emosi? Adakah aku sebenarnya sudah matang? Dewasa? /muntah darah/ Lulz, even adults do have emotions. Dimana dah aku sumbang segala emosi yang macam taknak pergi dulu - yang macam beban? Aku terfikir, masih memikir.

Again. Entah kenapa, aku sebolehnya cuba taknak menyentuh sangat isu lepas bila bercakap dengan orang-orang yang aku pernah kenal which they kinda resurface back after such a long time yang buat aku bercakap ni ;-;

"Kau ingat lagi?" - J

I guess, as long as it's a good memories - why not? People grown-up, their thought and ways of thinking changed - and yeah you got no hold of that :) Sekarang, aku rasa macam adik kecik yang bercakap dengan senior, dengan mereka yang sedang work on their dream. You somehow get inspired by them, and it's good when you have someone who you can always refer to.




Saturday, 10 October 2015

001:


Assalammualaikum ._.

I don't even know if I do have to type the magic word - been a long time. Yeah, sure it does.

I have completed my first semester in foundation studies. In the midst of still not believing that I did actually choose this path instead of the mainstream one uhuks. Surely, being a BENL's student doesn't sound as grand as title held by science stream-ers (?) or other arts programmes. It's depend on how you mentally viewing all this situations.

The process of adapting my ownself from things I had previously ate, drank, live with aren't easy to be honest. I used to literally drunk from reading and memorise all the facts during my upper form. Lulz. Now, the focus are on skills because skills aren't built in a day.

"Aku still taktahu kenapa aku pilih BEN instead of science stream's. Tapi, apa yang aku nampak bila jadi student BEN - dunia ni lagi luas peluangnya, bukan hanya fokus pada sains je" - E.

I still get nervous whenever I am jaded in situation which required me to speak in English, even among BENLs. It just doesn't came out fluently as it supposed to be. Funny thing is I did came into that extent where I refuse to call my ownself a BENLs because of those flaws that I had. Lulz.However, I am having fun.

"Cari kelebihan kamu. Bila kamu jumpa kelebihan kamu, kamu semua takperlu spent banyak effort pun untuk score." - Sir Tazrin.
Approved. Ha ha ha.
I am more relax compared to before.
I still can sleep, talk, read novels and write.

Feel free to know more about my course here!
or you can always contact me :)